This Complicated Feeling Is ..

trying to kill me. i've kept the same feeling for a same guy since 7 years ago. Hoping that he will understand my feeling by himself, but it seems like he even dont wanna care about me. it hurts me. Yes of course. But it is too embarrassing if i tell him my true feeling.Because i even haven't talk to him since 3 years ago, although his house is next to me.

I dont know what should i do to make him understand, it seems like he never look at me, although we were so close when we were in elementary and junior high school. i always try to throw this feeling away, far far far away from me.

well , any advice ? :'(